Monday, November 10, 2008

This is a newborn anthology entitled 'Crying In The Dark', edited by my of the short story,'Psycho' is taken from a book by Xeus,Dark City. i love that story very much because it is different, nerve-recking and adventurous.( ~above all, Dark City is very exciting~.)

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

after choral reading..a smile of relief~

Friday, October 17, 2008

Nothing Girl by Christelle Duvenage

Maybe I wear baggies
and white socks with flip-flops,
maybe I don't like listening to rave
and I'm not on the social mountaintops,
maybe I don't care about the things
that make your worlds twirl,
maybe you look at me and think:
Gee, what a nothing girl.

Maybe I like giving smiles
which seems to be a sin today,
and maybe I allow my imagination
to sometimes run away,
maybe you don't understand this
and that's why you cannot see,
if this make me a nothing girl,
hey, that's ok with me!

The world makes you believe
your personality mustn't be detected,
your face must be picture perfect
and wear cloths just the best, to be accepted.
Maybe I look at you
and feel sorry that you're blind,
robots you have became,
yourself you'll never find.

God made you, as well as me,
this means I am something,
the world is a liar
and if I must be a nothing
for you to see it,
then so be it!

12 oct 2008

Among Vegetables by Muhammad Haji Salleh

“My poetry is ‘communally-centered in as much as I write about myself, a Malay and the community I know best, my own” (2003, p.15). It is Muhammad Haji Salleh who uttered this sentence when he was criticized for being too “communally-centered”. His latest anthology Rowing Down Two Rivers (2000) has included a poem titled “among vegetable” which reveals local setting in the form of local fruits and vegetation. This poem tells us about a market that has been a place where varieties of local vegetables are found. The author does not only highlighting the vegetable sold, but he also represents the cultural values of Malaysian. In this twelve stanzas poem, the persona is walking all over the market and describes what he saw in his own thought. The vegetables he is talking about can be categorized as Malaysian flavor. Some of them originate from swamp area, jungle, and orchard from the village. He even linked the vegetables with delicious traditional cuisines which he akin to keep in mind. Regarding this poem, we can deduce that the persona is celebrating the Malaysian culture via the food, tradition, and reverence value of Malaysian people.

Generally, kerdas, petai, jering, and mengkudu are local vegetables that have been eaten since thousands years ago. Some country might found these vegetables on their land but only Malaysian eat them as traditional appetizer. These vegetables are visualized in specific imagery; kerdas is illustrated as brown and smooth while petai is in gamelan cymbal’s size. In the third stanza, cabbages are lightly green and whitish while in the seventh stanza, sweet potatoes are seen copper red. Other than that, similes are often used to illustrate those local vegetables. Cabbages are portrayed as white as coconut milk, whereas ginger is coiled as a cold baby like stated in the second line of the sixth stanza. Moreover, the smell of ginger is later on personifies as ‘creeping’, just like human. In the next stanza, sweet potatoes are also given the personification imagery which is surrendered. This means that the potatoes are like ‘giving in’ and they accept the fate, for what will happen next is being eaten.

Next, we have come to notice that traditional foods are also being mention in the poem. In the seventh stanza, there are cucur badak with shrimps and cucur keria with holes, made up to be served during breakfast. Not to forget, vegetables in coconut soup, and deep fried Kedah sweetmeat. Although these are obviously Malay traditional food, almost all Malaysian are familiar with it. Rarely found in other country, it makes these foods unique and it is indeed to show the identity of Malaysian flavor.

In addition, compared to western country, they usually use drugs to treat illness. In the eleventh stanza, the persona has simply informed us that scarlet jerangau; sold by a gentleman from Sarawak can be use as remedies. Local people use its root to cure diabetes and also act as antidote for alcohol. There are many other vegetables or part of plants that have been trust by locals to cure illness.
In conjunction with Malaysian tradition being exposed in the poem, the first example is in the fourth stanza; grandma runduk tadau is ingesting her sweet betel mix. Betel is a kind of leaf being chewed with betel-nut, and commonly seen to be taken by older generation, at rural area generally. Other than that, a gentleman from Sarawak do reveal the next tradition; having proud ears. To be brief, this is a kind of ethnicity identity which can normally found in Malaysia. This ethnic have their ears pierced and something heavy will be hanged to make their ears longer downward.

Now we have come to the second issue which is celebrating Malaysian culture by including reverence value of Malaysian people. These can be seen as the persona use to address older people with appropriate title. An adult woman and man are usually called aunt and uncle, respectively. For example, in the third stanza, there is a woman called aunt inai while in the next stanza the persona had address an old woman as grandma runduk tadau. Is it the women are the persona’s real aunt or grandma? No. Its being called as it is because in Malaysia, we did not call someone older with their name. We have the sense of respecting the elders and giving such title show courtesy. In fact, if we did not do so, we will be considered as rude.

To sum up, the persona is portraying Malaysian customs in three ways; the vegetation and its cooking, traditional practice, and venerability among Malaysian people. All in all, we can say that food can be one of identity that portrays the country. Traditional practice, on the other hand will be a symbolic of distinctiveness among society. To live together in a multicultural country, we should respect people, and addressing others with appropriate title will help a lot. Obviously, the author had made the poem more comprehend as he had described the vegetable with sufficient imagery. This can always help people who are not familiar with Malaysian culture to understand better.

Ollie's Search for Golden Hope

“Kehinde did not let Albert down. She treated her guests to the whole array of Nigerian traditional styles and fabrics, from guinea boubou to aso-oke iro and buba, to the Igbo lace blouse and George lappa, ending with the Igbo ceremonial costume of white otu-ogwu. This consisted of a cloth wound around her body beneath the armpits, leaving her shoulders bare. Precious coral beads adorned her neck, hair and ears. The outfit was to emphasize her position as first wife of the first son, and the mother of a son herself. Kehinde reveled in the impression she created.”

Above paragraph was taken out from a novel by Buchi Emecheta entitled Kehinde. In this paragraph, we can see that the author had uses some words that belong to her community, to be exact; they were used in Igbo society in Nigeria. Boubou, aso-oke iro and buba, lappa and otu-ogwu are examples of traditional Yoruba women’s clothes and these show us how the author wanted to encode her values, culture and belief in her writing. In other words, she had use nativisation technique in the novel thus we can make clearer impression on the background of the story. Apart from that, nativisation is also used as an act of dissent against colonial or imperial autocracy and control. In most writing, there are six level of nativisation used; form, context, literary devices, thematic concern, genre and purpose. To discuss further about nativisation, here we’ve got a short story by Syed Adam Aljafri “Ollie’s Search for Golden Hope” and we would go on with the identification of nativisation techniques used and evident found in the story. The three main forms that would be thoroughly discussed here are nativisation of form, context, and literary devises.

First of all, it is the nativisation of form. To be precise, this level of nativisation consists of three subdivisions which are lexical, syntax and cohesive structure. Lexical nativisation is words that have been borrowed or direct translation from one’s native language to be written in English text. For example, in this story, Syed Adam had used the Malay word abang which means addressing someone older (man) or a wife calling her husband to show respect. Other Malay words such as ulam, pucuk paku, and sambal belacan are examples of Malay dishes. Ulam are nutritious appetizer, leafy vegetables that are usually eaten raw by Malays. Sambal belacan is chilly toasted shrimp-paste cake ground with tomato and these two dishes go very well together. In addition, the author used the word kenduri, which means a type of cultural and religious celebration by Malays. Obviously he can always use English words to describe pucuk paku; fern shoots but indeed, using the word pucuk paku and any other Malay words had more effect in highlighting the local accent. Next, we’ll go on further with syntax; code switching, code mixing, and grammatical patterns. In this story, there are many dialogues or sentences that portray ‘Malaysian English’. For instance,

“Sorry about that, nothing personal, ahh? Fool’s gold. Just iron pyrites lah. No real value commercially.”

Ah, trying to potong trip to cut off Megat from his “gel-pren” tonight, eh? Wah suddenly someone is very sombong, too proud to join us ordinary folk! Be careful, don’t be lured by a pontianak succubus who’ll drain your nuts and suck out your soul!

“Hey, don’t pretty-pretty yourself too much, the mermaids waiting for me will turn into dugong seacows for you!”

The italic words are used not elsewhere but in oral or written Malaysian English. The word pontianak is the example of allusion where it is referring to “Malay woman ghost”. These are indeed examples of nativisation of form, under the syntax and cohesive structure subdivisions. Throughout these sentences, we might quickly assume that these sentences are uttered by Malaysian, where English is used as a second or foreign language, and distinct variety evolves.

Next, we will discuss about nativisation of context. The story was set up in Malaysia, to be precise, at the area of Kelantan River, Gua Musang, Gemas, and Kuala Kerai. Characters are also Malaysian, namely Gazz Babar from Kedah, Senawee Jumaat of Perak, Aberdeen Annuwar of Melaka, Megat Jajj and lastly Ollie. These example of local places and people have proved that the text have been nativised by simply using those Malaysian names. Moreover, one of the issues that have been raised here is about greediness; how this manner can bring us to suffer, even losing lives. Searching for the gold does not only make Ollie having debt here and there, but also he looses his friends, drawn in the mass of rain water. And after all the effort and sacrifice, he indeed gets nothing; the gold in his right fist is not known where it really comes from.

Other evident of nativisation in this short story can also be identified in the form of literary devices. First of all, the symbol of gold as something that can make people wealthy. There are also similes found such as; “…..the mass of rain water which continued to grow like a jinn, a genie released after millennia of bottled confinement.” The underlined words mean that the running water is being compared as big as a released genie. Jinn is another name of genie; a spirit believed by Malay communities. Other example; He just had time to exclaim “Ya Allah!” before a second but smaller onrush of water swallowed him like a gigantic python. Again, water is described as another huge creature which is as big as a gigantic python. Allusion, under the form of literary devises can be found early in the story where Gazz make a glib remark about has Saddam come to defeat Bush. This refers to Iraq’s political situation that has been recently happened. Another example can be found in one of the paragraph within the story; “Gold-gold-gold! I’ve found it, brothers! GOLD, oh GOLD!” Megat was jumping and dancing around like an oversized supporter of Hanuman the Monkey God in the “Ramayana” epic, whose fellow primates had built a bridge across a sea strait by holding one another’s tails to allow the hero to cross. Megat here is described as excited, and acting like one of God in “Ramayana” epic. Hanuman the Monkey God is written here to intentionally make us think of that specific belief in Hinduism.

To sum up, there are lots of nativisation techniques applied by the writer in this story and some of them had been picked out to be analyzed. Three levels that have been discussed previously are nativisation of form, context, and literary devices. Nativisation of form consists of collection of borrowed word or direct translation from one’s native language to English. The same goes with the sentence construction and cohesive structure which have native accent in the usage of words used. Allusion, make it obvious that the writer uses specific words that portray local culture and believes. Under the key word nativisation of context, Malay characters and places in Malaysia had been used numerously. And last but not least, nativisation of literary devices such as symbols, similes, and allusion are also depicted in the story.

The Model Millionaire by Oscar Wilde


Let’s begin with the synopsis of this short story. Hughie Erskine is a gorgeous and well-known man. He has every accomplishment except earning money. He tries everything; from being an investor, a tea- merchant, to selling dry sherry. Nothing works and what makes thing worse that he is in love. The girl is Laura Merton, the daughter of a retired Colonel. Both are madly in love and adoring each other. The problem is, Hughie had no idea how he could manage to get ten thousand pounds to get her hand in marriage, as her father has demand. One day, Hughie’s benevolent nature leads him to a wonderful consequence. Given ten thousand by a ‘beggar’ as a wedding present, Hughie could marry Laura instantly with no doubt.
The writer of this story, Oscar Wilde was an Irish playwright, novelist, poet, and author of short stories. He is known for being humorous and some of his plays still being performed broadly, especially The Importance of Being Earnest.
After I have read this story a few times, I’ve found out that there are some parts of the story that keep me reading; attentively. The title itself had made me thinking, what this jobless man is going to do with ‘model millionaire’? I’m quite sure that this is not a story where a man with no profession suddenly found a treasure in his backyard and then became an instant millionaire. He must be overcoming something, or struggling to make his dreams come true. Other than that, I don’t have to wait for too long because the author did not take time to introduce the important part of the story.

Narration Style

The Model Millionaire is a story where not any of the character is narrating the story. We called it omniscient point of view. Everyone in the story is being exposed to the reader without prejudice. The narrator knows the entire events that happen. What makes this story more significant is that the narrator intrusively being in depth in showing how a certain character feels and comment about another person; establishing his personal view. For instance, Alan Trevor the painter is introduced as a strange rough fellow yet he feels free to allow Hughie to enter his studio. This is because he believes Hughie is not only charming, but he got the sense of optimistic spirits and charitable nature.
Other than that, the tone of this story is familiar and I found it most suitable. It is being told straight to the point, not like other story which requires us to read with so much confusion and critical thinking. The author makes it understandable, at ease and not to forget, he includes the sense of didacticism.


This short story is being written chronologically and it has close ending where Hughie finally marry his beautiful Laura. The part where Hughie gives ‘the beggar’ a sovereign is a complete turnover of this story. Hughie is expecting the millionaire to be mad at him because he falsely regarded him as a beggar. Ironically Baron Hausberg, the millionaire gives him ten thousands to show his appreciation towards Hughie’s charitable nature. As for me, both the rising action and the climax are well developed. Apart from that, I think the ending is quite monotonous. The typical ‘living happily ever after’ has take place. What will happen to Hughie after he gets married? How about his failure to get permanent income? The then thousand pounds won’t be sufficient till the end of their life, isn’t it?


As long as I’m concern, the characters are quite well developed and presented. There is adequate description about every single character; certainly it’s according to their level of contribution in the story. For instance, Hughie is being depicted as handsome, having crisp brown hair, clear-cut profile and grey eyes. His nature of generosity and buoyancy are revealed indirectly by Alan Trevor’s point of view.Alan Trevor is portrayed as rare, with freckled face and a red raged beard. In addition, even the visitor who was sent by Baron Hausberg is described as an old gentleman with gold spectacles and grey hair. This kind of exposure can help the reader to imagine their appearance in the story, making it more effective.
Moreover, speech and actions included has brought the readers closer to the story. Sometimes it seems that we can get into the characters’ head and figure out his thought. At the same time, the characters’ values are to be exposed this way. For example, Hughie’s generosity is portrayed within a conversation with Alan in the Palette Club;
‘My dear Alan,’ cried Hughie, ‘I shall probably find him waiting for me when I go home. But of course you are only joking. Poor old wretch! I wish I could do something for him. I think it is dreadful that any one should be so miserable. I have got heaps of old clothes at home- do you think he would care for any of them? Why, his rags were falling to bits.’


A number of settings that I’ve found in the story included time, places and socioeconomic settings. Sufficient illustration is included so that we know the story was held in London where their currency is pound sterling. The scene where Hughie meets Alan and ‘the beggar ’in the studio, and they were in the Palette Club happened in a day. Then the next morning Hughie has been given the ten thousand pounds as a wedding gift. The socioeconomic setting shows any beggars are rarely found at the street as being mention by Alan;
‘Such beggars as he are not to be met with every day.’
This might mean that only few people are living hardly, others lived comfortably.
To analyze about the effectiveness of the settings, I would say that there are some settings that have help the reader to understand more, but another setting is inadequate for some reasons. For example, the situation in common places such as studio and night club are quite similar no matter which country are you in. So, whatever scene takes place in that area the reader can help themselves to understand the scene. On the contrary, for readers who haven’t been to European country might have some difficulty to get the picture of socioeconomic and cultural setting mentioned in the story.


In my point of view, this story is quite interesting because it reminds us about moral values that sometime and somehow we had forgotten or neglect. Being a well educated human should make us aware of others people burden. As the saying goes, what goes around comes around. Without no doubt, kindness will be repay by kindness, no matter how, when and where it should be. Even though ‘the beggar’ is not a true beggar, Hughie’s sincerity to help him without hoping anything in return can be symbolized as we shouldn’t take things for granted.
On the other hand, the simplicity of vocabulary and syntax also add my interest towards reading and analyzing this story. It is easy to understand with light conflict and exposure to some French language. Suitable to be read at all level, this story could catch the reader attention to finish them in a few minutes.

Monday, September 15, 2008


purple zone

Benefits - Why Take Spirulina?

Spirulina is the ultimate natural nutritional supplement. It contains the most complete source of nutrients found in any single food. Spirel Spirulina typically contains over 65% protein, more than any other food including meat and fish. Proteins are necessary for maintaining tissues, sustaining growth and making hormones in the body. Spirulina contains the eight essential and 10 other amino acids and a greater concentration of vitamins and nutrients than any other natural food. Just 3 to 10 grams of Spirel Spirulina a day gives impressive amounts of beta carotene, B complex vitamins, Vitamin E, essential trace minerals and gamma linolenic acid (GLA). Spirulina is also a major source of iron and calcium.

Our bodies are constantly subjected to an onslaught of toxic chemicals from the air, water, food and drugs and need to continually eliminate these toxins. It has long been known that spirulina accelerates detoxification especially during fasting as spirulina has a unique combination of phytonutrients that can help cleanse our bodies. There is also evidence that spirulina significantly reduces kidney toxicity caused by some heavy metals. Spirulina was widely used to treat children suffering radiation sickness after the Chernobyl disaster.

Immune Booster
Spirulina is a powerful tonic for the immune system. Research and experience indicate that spirulina is an immune regulating food. Small amounts can help balance and stabilise the immune system, freeing up more of our metabolic energy for vitality, healing and assimilation of nutrients. The blue-green natural protein pigment phycocyanin has been shown in animal studies to increase lymphocyte activity and stimulate the production of blood. Phycocyanin probably prevents a host of degenerative organ diseases by increasing immunity. Complex sugars from spirulina have been shown to increase antibody production and infection fighting T-cells. Mice have shown increased immunity, bone marrow reproduction, growth of thymus and spleen when fed complex sugars and phycocyanin from spirulina.

Vegetarians & Vegans
Spirel Spirulina products have been approved by both the vegetarian and vegan societies (except Spirel Royal and Spirel Gold which contain Royal Jelly). All our other products are of 100% vegetable origin, including Spirel Vegetarian Capsules which contain 100% Spirel Spirulina in capsules made from vegetarian cellulose. Spirel Spirulina is, in fact, the ideal food supplement for vegetarians and vegans. It provides a natural plant source of protein and is rich in other vitamins and minerals that vegetarians and vegans commonly lack in their diets, such as certain amino acids that other vegetable proteins do not provide.

Spirulina is a superfood suited to a high intensity workout. Taken before exercise it delivers energy and improves stamina. Spirel Spirulina offers 65% protein and amino acids and is low in fat. It is helpful in reducing calorific intake, essential for boxers and weightlifters who must maintain competitive weights. Cuban elite athletes have taken Spirel Spirulina for many years as it helps them intensify training before competition. Spirulina also helps to create and repair muscle and retain iron in the body. It is beneficial to hillwalkers, mountain climbers and marathon runners as it improves endurance and reduces cramp.

Weight loss
Various studies have shown the effectiveness of micro-algae in weight loss. Spirulina on its own will not bring about weight loss. However, it does provide the right conditions within the body to help achieve this goal. Much has been written recently about the “Glycaemic Index” (GI) of certain foods. Low GI foods that are slow to break down into sugars are better for you as they don’t produce a rapid rise in blood sugar that triggers an increase in insulin which then lowers blood sugar and starts a food craving. Spirulina is the richest natural source of Gamma Linolenic Acid (GLA). It provides three times more GLA than Evening Primrose Oil. Like low GI foods, GLA helps regulate blood sugar levels and helps prevent cravings. Spirulina also contains the amino acid Phenylaline, which helps satisfy your appetite as it triggers a substance that is found in the appetite control centre of the brain. Effective weight loss requires a healthy lifestyle. Spirel Spirulina as part of a healthy diet along with an exercise regime is an ideal way to achieve weight loss.

Iron is the most common mineral deficiency worldwide. Iron anaemia is prevalent in women, children, older people and especially women on weight-loss diets. Iron is essential for healthy red blood cells and a strong immune system, but typical iron supplements are not well absorbed by the human body. Tests have shown that the availability of iron in spirulina is more than in other iron supplements. Athletes in intensive training can suffer from non-anaemic iron deficit, with symptoms such as exhaustion and muscle fatigue. Athletes who took spirulina for two months showed a distinct rise in iron reserves. The addition of Spirel Spirulina to your diet can eliminate iron deficit symptoms and optimise athletic health and physical capacity.

Most people are aware of the need to reduce cholesterol levels in order to lower the risk of heart attacks and strokes. Spirel Spirulina contains no cholesterol. However, its main benefit is in reducing blood cholesterol levels particularly the bad LDL type. Work in Japan has shown that men with high blood cholesterol who took spirulina for eight weeks without changing their diet showed a marked reduction in serum cholesterol, triglyceride and LDL cholesterol.

Many people are aware of the value of food supplements for an aging population. It is well known that the antioxidants Vitamins C, E and beta carotene attack free radicals that roam throughout the body wreaking havoc on cells and organs increasing the aging effect and the risk of cancer. Anti-aging foods such as spirulina are ideal for older people who do not eat much, eat inappropriately or cannot absorb enough nutrients. Spirel Spirulina is the ideal anti-aging whole food and its high levels of natural beta carotene have been shown to be much more effective than the synthetic form found in many supplements.

Spirulina is 95% digestible because it has soft cell walls. It promotes digestion and bowel function. People taking Spirel Spirulina often notice an immediate change in bowel regularity and elimination. It suppresses bad bacteria like e-coli and Candida yeast and stimulates beneficial gut flora like lactobacillus and bifidobacteria. Healthy lactobacillus in the intestines provides humans with three major benefits: better digestion and absorption, protection from infection and stimulation of the immune system. For these reasons many people take lactobacillus supplements. Research in Japan showed spirulina increased lactobacillus by 300% compared to a control group. The study also showed that spirulina increased the absorption of vitamins in particular vitamin B1.

Wound healing
People use spirulina in face and body creams and body wraps. The Kanembu people in Chad use freshly harvested algae as a skin poultice for treating certain diseases. In France it has been found that pharmaceutical compounds containing spirulina accelerated wound healing. In Japan it has been shown that cosmetic products containing spirulina promoted skin metabolism and reduced scars. Spirel Spirulina cosmetic products, including moisturisers, sun creams and anti-cellulite creams will soon be available. Alternatively, why not try making your own Spirel Facemask with Spirel Spirulina powder.

Many people today lead busy lives, working all day and socialising in the evening and at weekends. A Spirel smoothie in the morning or two glasses of water and some spirulina tablets or capsules will ward off the worst effects of a hangover. After too much alcohol, water is essential for re-hydration. Spirulina adds protein, vitamins and minerals to help replenish the body’s depleted reserves.

Thursday, September 4, 2008


Jumping rope three times a week may increase your bone density. And if you have arthritis, your pain may ease as your joint stability improves. For the most benefit, do at least 50 jumps at a comfortable pace, jump no more than 5 inches in the air, and land flat-footed to distribute the force.
If you haven’t added weight training to your workout routine, you might want to give it a try. Women who regularly work out with weights not only increase muscle mass but also boost their metabolism. If you are worried about “bulking up,” don’t be. Lift lighter weights and more repetitions to avoid looking like the Hulk.
When you are working toward a goal, one positive thing you can do is to act as if you’ve made it. Believing that you will obtain your desires is the first step in the process. Many athletes visualize an outcome, such as winning a race, before it actually happens. Do you want a new job? A healthy, loving relationship? First, believe that it will happen, visualize that it has happened, and then take action to make it true. The outcome may amaze you.
What you think about yourself may impact how you appear to others. If you think you’re not too bright, most people will probably think that, too. If you believe you are confident, more than likely others will see you that way. Even if you don’t believe good things about yourself, you can talk yourself into it. Eventually, just as you come to believe the negative thoughts about yourself, you will come to believe the positive things.

Monday, September 1, 2008

miaw....jgn tension2 eyh...te tgkap gmbr awk ckit jek.bab comey sgt.pandai ea wat jelingan manje.tergoda i, u... =p

chubby cape lah ni??

Sunday, August 10, 2008

double twin??

Saturday, August 9, 2008

what rose represents you?

Your Love Is Represented By a Pink Rose
You see love as something that should be light, fun, and whimsical. People fall in love with you easily. And you tend to fall out of love easily!You express your love through attention and shared experiences. You love people more than they realize.

see how he he react. even when he got problems, smiles cannot be wash away from his cute sweet face

which of the five senses are you?

You are the Sense of Sight
You are a very observant, detail oriented person.You are able to take in a lot of information at once.You often see things that other people never notice.You have a good eye for design and aesthetics.You love to be surrounded by beauty - natural or not.When you imagine how something should look, you see it clearly in your mind.

do you have a healthy relationship?

You Have Very Healthy Relationships
You are an amazing friend, partner, and family member.You always take other people's feelings into account, and you're never selfish.Your relationships are based on mutual respect.You respect the people you love, and you only love people who respect you in return.

week 5

It has been a week since amizan come back from Mecca. He had change a lot but still being my favorite boy. Funny, caring, patient and not to forget, loveable. Going out day and night was like giving me some freedom. Indulgence, gratification, and happiness are all that I can say. Maybe sometime I had to sulk if he ignored my feeling, but then I feel that it is a waste of time. Totally. There are so many other things that we should do to enjoy the time we had. After this, such opportunity won’t easily available again.

Monday, July 21, 2008

My five most important accomplishments are:

1. I’ve got 3.10 for my pngk.
2. I was selected as one of my college volleyball players in sukem
3. I managed to buy a hand phone and a laptop without taking money from my parents. Not
even a cent!
4. I’ve got a cute boyfriend! He is adorable, funny, caring, and the most important, he got a lot of patience.
5. I’ve been to ‘cold place’ with my love one.

What qualities of character have I strengthen?

Since I’ve met Amizan, I feel that being happy and not too emotional can really lighten up my days. Therefore, day by day, I keep an eye on his behavior. He is not easily pissed off (unlike me!) and he will always make me laugh with his witty humors. I always said to Amizan that I wanted to be like him. What I’ve learnt is getting angry is an option; even if you are ought to get mad at someone or something, you can just ignore the feeling and act as nothing happen. This kind of simple action can make a lot differences in our life. As for me, patient people are noble. Furthermore, these people are more tolerate and they have less stress in coping with their daily problems. They smiles a lot and people are more attracted to them. So, I will continue on working with my emotion; getting more patient and happier in life.
What needs my attention at this time in my life?
First and foremost, it is my health. I care so much about getting thinner and looking naturally beautiful everyday. Secondly, my education is really important because I wanted to achieve my dream to be a lecturer. Therefore I should study smarter and focused to get exam’s results with flying colors. Then, my relationship with my partner comes to be in third place. I tend to get serious when having special relationship with whom I attracted.

first day..second blog.

dear ME..
this is my first personal blog and i would like to practise writing on my own. i love expressing my inner voice out loud so that i can see more clearly what happen every day and every second in my life. as an introvert person i don't speak much with people. therefore, i speak when i need. but this doesn't mean that i am unfriendly. people may see me as serious but deep inside me, i love humours and i laugh a lot.